i'm bloody stressed out..(i'm being a lot less vulgar when i type than when i think, i have no reason to offend ppl with my words, unless u're my mum, then anything i say will prob offend u). so anyway..welcome to my life. firstly..this is all gripe, nothing too funny. i'm sick. i have a mountain of work to do, and not enough time to do it. my mum is annoying. my sis is irritaing the hell outta me. and for the upteenth time in not too long, i wish i'm hermione with a time-turner, then maybe i won't feel so suffocated. the worst thing is, if u sit down and think abt it, the most rigorous thing abt the a level is not so much the depth of ur knowledge, it's the sheer amt u have to remember (for my combi at least) and the sheer no of skills u must know. i think everyday, as i try to learn something new, a lil bit of what was taught then slips further back into my mind, somewhere i'll have trouble accessing.
anyway, the highlight of this entry is my mum. i mean, if she can't help me with sch work, it doesn't matter, but at least let me freaking help myself!!!!! she makes a big deal of my going to sch everyday, as if i have nothing better to do than go out and waste what little time i have left. puh-lease!!!!!!!! sometimes i feel like yelling at her, but i think it'll just make things worse than they already are. then again, if i yell at her, she may throw me outta the house and i'd finally have some peace so i can study. seriously, when u put my mum and sis together, they just cannot shut up, and u can't begin to imagine what my life is like unless u're in a similar situation (poor u). so anyway, my mum thinks she have EVERY authority to look at things my sis leaves ard the house, like her personal letters to her friends. and my mum actually picks them up and reads them. i saw her do it once, was so disgusted and made my point known. so she said if u leave it ard, why can't i read it? i said she shld respect someone else's privacy, but NO!!!! my mum must always be right. why? because she's THE mother. and u know what else she said? she said invading our privacy is the only way she can find out what goes on in our lives. RIGHT! that statement just emphasises my point. and i'm supposed to trust my mother. PLUS! she's so judgemental, sometimes, telling her anything is really a mistake, because ppl can only fall into the same few categories. just try to begine a story, come to keyword, and immediately she rattles on abt how because such and such..therefore like that like that. sheeeeeesh!!! and...she is ALWAYS asking whether i eat in sch! YES!!!! if u ever read this, i eat. i snack. in fact, i eat a bit too much for my confort, but because u dun see it, u think i dun eat. too bad then. ughhh
since i've been griping so much, let me try to end of a slightly lighter note. the few bright sparks in my life are still bright, and they keep me going. i think i need to laugh more, or just sit down and cry for 2 hrs. either way, i doubt i have the time now. welcome to my life.
